Don’t Ask Me

2/18/05 - L.N.

I said Hello and shook your hand…

I said good-bye for now, but we’ll meet again.

You said Hello back, and shook my hand…

But you said good-bye… just a plain goodbye.

So don’t ask me why I don’t offer my hand to you…

Don’t ask me why no words come out of my mouth now.

You cried when you were lonely, and I opened my arms.

You called when you were sad, and I listened.

I cried when I was lonely, I called when I was sad…

But you weren’t there.

So don’t ask me why I don’t open my arms…

Don’t ask me why I don’t offer my ears to listen now.

Will you ever say hello first?

Will you bid me good-bye for now, until we meet again?

Will you open your arms when I cry?
Will you listen when I call for you?

Why I wish for all these---don’t ask me why.

Don’t ask me why in spite of all your adequacies, I still think of you.

Don’t ask me why….

Reason to celebrate today?

So it is, indeed, my very special day today...  So I woke up in the morning, as usual.  Got ready for work, and made sure I looked extra-gorgeous! hehe.   So I filled up my coffee mug, dashed outside the door; and after about 5 minutes of scraping ice off my windshield, I was driving to work.  My morning drive to work includes a brief morning prayer---so after about 3 minutes after my prayer ended, IT HAPPENED.....  I went over a block ice, made a 360 degree turn, and hit the car to my left.  There I was, trembling with fear, and with my car against traffic, when just a few seconds ago, I was going WITH the traffic.  Great...just great... the perfect birthday present, eh...  So now, I won't have a car for the next three days, and I have to patiently wait for the results of the assessment... yikes.

I was asking myself why things like this always happen to me.  Have I not been a good person?  What is God trying to tell me?  Am I being punished???  But then, I started to think---do I call this punishment, when other people have to deal with things like war, hunger and death?  I'm safe---and that's all that matters.  Sure, I'd probably have to spend so much $$$ on this accident---but money and cars are replaceable.  Life isn't---and I'm grateful I still have mine.

So regardless of the incident this morning, there is still reason for me to celebrate today.  I thank God for giving me another year to enjoy life---for the 23rd time!

Wow!  I think this has been the longest time that I failed to update my xanga!  So how have I been doing lately?  As inclined as I am to say, "I'm doing great", I have to admit that I'm just doing "okay".  I feel guilty for not keeping up with my new year's resolution, and we're not even halfway through the year yet.  I admit that I haven't really embraced each day, and lived life to the fullest---as I said I would do this year.  But oh well, I'm trying!  It's just so freakin hard to wake up in the morning with excitement, when I know that I have an hour of driving (and traffic) to go through.  I think this week has been the week that I swore the most, and used my car horns the most, on the road. hehe.  Seriously, though, it can be pretty stressful!!!  I guess now I understand why people in Surrey are perceived as the worse drivers in Vancouver... It's because by the time you cross the bridge over to Surrey, you're just so stressed, that you can't help but drive recklessly!!!  So yes, I admit...I have become a Surrey driver (but no worries, Kat... I'm still no surrey slut, ok. heheh).

Anyway, looking @ the positive side, I guess I'm fairly happy at this moment.  I mean, although I don't have a date for valentine's, I'm grateful for that special day---coz that's when i turn 23!   So we shall party hard on Friday!  yey!

 

 

So we’re all set and ready to move to Surrey tomorrow morning.  The house is unusually quiet tonight., and there’s only one thing on my mind right now:  How I wish I can hear that cute little voice of my three-year old nefew…. God, I miss him so much!  And it hasn’t even been a day

since he moved to his own place, with his mommy.  I’m certainly gonna miss those nights when a cute little boy would barge into my bedroom because he doesn’t want to go to bed yet.  I’m going to miss seeing that cute smile first thing in the morning.  Sigh…  

 

                                 November 2003                      

   

                       

 

October 2005                         November 2005

  

So I finally found the time to write another entry.  It’s been a while, and I’m gonna try my best to read other people’s blogs to keep me up to date!  (sorry, guys, for being non-existent these past few days!)  Work has been treating me well, but I have to admit that I don’t have as much time as I thought I would have.  I used to think that being out of school would give me so much time to do the things that I’ve been wanting to do…but I guess I was wrong.  With 8 hours spent at work, there’s not much time left to do other things.  But mind you, I am trying my best to do other things… For instance, I’ve been going to the gym after work, regardless of how tired I am.  I’ve also been learning to play the guitar (and Law, I suck.  It’s taking me forever to learn one song!).  Tomorrow, I’m gonna cook a special lunch for my family, as this will be our last “Sunday Lunch” here at our house.  In a few days, I move to Surrey… yikes!

I’ve also been getting to know a few people over the internet.  I used to think that guys who are on the internet to find a girl are probably desperate guys with major deficits, which explains why they can’t find girls in the real world.  But you know what?  They’re so not desperate---- in fact, they even have more reason to become picky or demanding, because of the large pool of women they can choose from.  Most of these guys just find the internet so convenient, because their busy lives can’t accommodate finding the right girl. 

So I wonder what you guys think… Do you have the same opinion about people who are into meeting people online?  Would you date someone you only met online?  Share your thoughts…